If you know me personally (which lets face it you don’t) you know that I get a lot of colds. Like a lot. It all started when I started dating my husband. He gets colds a lot too. I think it’s because he’s always chewing his nails. I’ve seen him on more the one occasion hold on to a railing bar on a public train then immediately put his hands in his mouth. He always laughs at me when I yell that “everyone in Chicago has touched that! Do you know how many germs you are putting in your mouth!” Then there’s the fact that he finishes his friends food if they don’t want the rest. I would never put anything that was near, in, or around someone else’s mouth in mine.( with the exception of kissing my husband) I guess I’m a Germafobe cause there are times I’m positive he is always sick and getting me sick because of these bad habits.
As a singer getting sick often forms a bit of aproblems for me. I miss prepaid voice lessons, life changing auditions, and scheduled singing engagement don’t go as well as I would like. My lack of upper register from flem limits me vocally at times.
It’s also scary. I sometimes find myself wondering if this is it. Is this going to be the cold that kills my voice for good?
I pray to God often “please please let my voice recover from this bad cold/cough.”
I take all types of cold medicine and home remedies yet a month later he gets a cold and then I get it.
There has been a lot of times I cough so much and so hard blood comes up. This is very frightening. When you cough it’s like slamming you vocal chords together very hard. It can cause a lot of bad friction that can create damage. I also often worry about getting polyps on my vocal cord. I don’t even think I have the money to get that fixed.
Especially the times when we don’t have Heath insurance which happens often cause of my hubby leaving jobs he does not like, and mistakes the affordable care makes. Every time I get really sick and go to the hospital our insurance gets accidentally cancelled.👀 They ( affordableCare) never tell us it’s cancelled we just always find out when we get a bill from the hospital saying our insurance did not go through. Then we go through the motions of showing we paid our bill them reinstating us but I still need to pay my hospital bill my self.
As a singer with uncertain healthcare I worry constantly. When I can’t sing I slip into depression. So if my voice goes away forever I really don’t know what will happen to me. It’s who I am.
Last Sunday’s #SayitwithyourdressSunday featured a skirt I purchased at Rainbow for $17.97.
It’s a Striped Wide-Pleated Scuba Skirt with High-Low Hemline. The material feels soft like styrofoam, and it makes it puff out like it has a extra support underneath.
I pared it with some short boots I purchased at the defunct Dots clothing store a couple Christmases back.
I wore a plain black turtleneck I got from Target 2 years ago with a silver statement necklace, and silver leopard circle earrings I recieved from two church buddies of mine.
Now let’s focus on my hair. My curls were originally achieved with a wash N go. After that got old I decided to go with the tried and true three strand twist-out. I decided to bun the front of my hair because my hair is a different texture in the front. The curls were not as prominent.
Now if the top of my hair seems blue no that’s not a camera malfunction. I tried to spray it Blue with Jerome Russell Bwild hair color spray. It did not work the way I planned but you can see it in bright light.
As always I like to bend the rules a little when it comes to my Sunday Service style. Even though it’s not always recieved well I’ve been experimenting with my hair color. Pairing it with different outfits so it doesn’t seem out of place. So I’m thinking conservative punk.
I know they don’t really go well together. We will see how this experiment goes.
I hate being taken for granted. I know this is a problem everyone deals with. I try not to take others for granted because I know how it feels, but it’s almost impossible for people not to get lost in the shuffle.
Life is hard. While we are all trying to survive we lose touch with friends, and family. They can’t help but feel unloved and unappreciated.
I feel like that a lot with my friends. I have friends at church that only talk to me at church. If I miss a few Sunday’s they don’t call or Facebook. A long time ago after a bad break up I stopped going to church for 6 months. None of my church friends called me once. I was heartbroken and I felt so alone. I realized out of sight out of mind is a real thing that can happen to a lot of friendships.
But what if your friends not doing well? What if they’re not ok? As someone who suffers from depression I can tell you that there have been more times then I can count that I was really low and close to the edge. No one called no one really wants to know how you really are doing. All these feelings are to messy for most people to handle. So they just fall back.
Maybe sometimes we should just step out of our comfort zone get dirty and check on our people. Sure It makes us uncomfortable, but in the end we might help someone.