My personal problems with crochet braids.

1.) People are always trying to say that my natural hair is weaved because its long and thick. Even when I did get my hair permed people always insinuate it wasn’t mine. so when I do wear weave I feel like it is going to basically confirm that for them. I often feel like people are trying to expose me for a liar. So many African Americans hold the belief that black women cannot grow long hair. When they do see someone with long thick hair they automatically believe this person just has a great weave. I worry sometimes that when I wear weave people are going to just assume my hair is always fake. 
2.) It makes me not like my hair texture sometimes. Okay so the hair texture I have in right now is curly, but it’s a looser curls than my curl. It’s very manageable unlike my hair. I’m getting used to not having to style my hair or having to go through a lot to style it. I’m a little bit unwilling to go back to my hair texture at times. Don’t get me wrong I love my hair. My hair can do a lot of things that most people hair can’t do and its really awesome. But sometimes I want to be able to style it really quickly and go out the door. This hair type that I have crocheted into my hair reminds me of that. It makes me not want to go back. This in turn makes me feel extremely ashamed. I feel like I’m going through a process of self hatred towards my hair texture sometimes. I feel a little confused about the whole situation. 
3.) It makes me feel self-conscious when people like my weave better than my actual hair. The first time I wore crochet braids I went to work and everybody was like “oh your hair is so beautiful! its so awesome! that’s how you should wear your hair from now on.” A lot of people told me they preferred my hair this way. A lot of people complemented The hair that was of a straighter texture than mine and they never say boo about any of my natural hairstyles. I got 1 billion more likes on Facebook and Instagram then I do with my actual natural hair. I got to say I’m not perfect it made me feel very self-conscious bout my natural hair. When I took the crochet braids out I didn’t feel the same way I did about my hair as I did before I put them in. I again felt Shame because I was letting the European standard of beauty break me down and make me not feel that my beauty was beautiful. It brought up a lot of the old emotional struggles that I went through when I was transitioning. I Have to constantly assure myself that my hair is beautiful the way that it grows out of my head. I felt like I was starting over again. 
4.) I don’t like styling my hair with boiling hot water. I don’t want to burn my face off. I really don’t want to burn my face-off!!! While styling my hair with the rollers in the boiling hot water I came very close to burning my face!!! The second time around I tried putting the hair around the rollers in the hot water before I added it to my head. This worked until the curls all fell out and I had to do it all over again with the hair in my head. I think I might have third-degree burns on my shoulders and ear. While I was doing this I was thinking “are you crazy you’re putting boiling hot water near your face!” Having pretty hair is not worth boiling your face off. 
5.) Finding the right type of hair thats manageable where I live is almost impossible. I cannot find a soft realistic looking Marley hair to save my life. The first two times I did crochet braids was with this really itchy Marley hair that I could barely style. I went to three different beauty supplies looking for a nice type of hair to do crochet braids with. The first Beauty supply I went to there was a gentleman working there who told me this is the only type of hair you can find in Chicago. I figured he was lying to get me to buy the hair that I was looking at that day. So I went to the other beauty supply five minutes in the other direction to prove him wrong the next day. Guess what? the same guy was working at the other beauty supply. He was like I saw you yesterday? You thought you could find the different hair texture at a different shop? I own both stores.  Well all we have is the same type of hair you saw you at the other shop like I told you yesterday. I gave in and bought the hair out of sheer embarrassment. So then the second time around I thought I would go to the beauty supply directly across the street from my house that just opened. Guess who was there… So there are 3 beauty supplies within five minutes of each other close to my house. You guessed it I live in the hood. I scoured YouTube looking for the type of hair that I should get that was more manageable. I looked up all the people that I saw with crochet braids on Pinterest and checked their website to find out what type of hair they used. I came up with four different types of hair that I was in pursuit of. Vivid 
Otre batik bohemian wave, Bohemian curl hair, Cuban twist, and

Freetress Water wave. I got word from a friend that Cuban twist hair was being sold in Indiana. I wasn’t about to go that far away just for some hair. I Felt like if I did it will be an all time low for me. So I went to a Beauty supply in a near by suburb that I used to go to in high school. The sales women had natural hair which immediately put me in a state of relief and comfort. I rattled off the types of hair that I was looking for and she immediately said you’re trying to do crochet braids aren’t you? She knew exactly what types of hair I was looking for. I was able to find the free tress water wave which is the hair that I am currently wearing. I was also able to find a hair that was kind of like cuban twist. I’m going to return and purchase that to make a natural hair crochet wig for my sister. But at the end of the day after all that searching for hair I felt like “what is happening with my life?” I felt like I wasted way too much time, money, and gas searching for something as stupid as weave. I need to get my life back from this hair detour I’ve been on. All I wanted to do is have a long sustaining protective style. I’m just going to enjoy this style for a month and then I’m probably going to take a break from crochet braids for a while. They’re beautiful, but extremely time-consuming in the pursuit of the right hair and installation. Just because someone’s YouTube video made installation look easy doesn’t mean that it is. It’s called video editing. The struggle is real and I’m totally over it right now. 

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My top five natural hair bloggers of 2014

As an aspiring natural hair blogger and natural hair enthusiast I love to support my fellow naturals. If I know about someone on YouTube or Instagram etc. that has awesome natural hair, health and style tips I want to spread the word. I believe we should all promote each other so everyone can share in the wealth of knowledge of natural hair care. With that being said I want to give a shout out to some of my favorite natural hair bloggers of 2014 so you can know where I get my info from and share on. Have a Happy New Year! 


5.) MsVaughnTV
We’re from the same city so I guess that makes me a little biased. I don’t care! She helped me realize that I was dying my hair wrong from tips she learn from a stylist. She has classy videos with great editing. She’s a business woman with her own Boutique, and a loving and supportive sister. We all know how hard it’s been for her since her sister natural hair vlogger MeechyMonroe became sick. I can tell that she’s holding down the fort with new vlogs while taking care of sissy and planning a wedding. The fact that she’s keeping up with her Volgs while going through so many changes means a lot. It shows how important her subscriber are to her and her sister. 
 
4.) My Natural Sistas 
I couldn’t pick one sister so I put them all as a collective in the number four slot. I have a serious hair crush on them. Most of their hair tutorials are quick, to the point, and easy to understand. Then Carmen kick it up a notch with her Health and fitness vlogging. If you think about it why settle for just healthy hair when all of you can be healthy. All the sister are extraordinary in their own right, and they motivate their subscribers to be their better selves. 
3.) CharyJay
The queen if high definition hair. At least that’s what I like to call her. I don’t think I will ever get my twist-out/ Braid-outs to look nearly as amazing as hers. Then she dyed her hair which made her perfect waves and curls even better to see. Her video editing is extreme next level for vlogging.  I hope someday my videos will be somewhere near her level. She shows how much she cares about her subscribers by the amount of attention she pays to detail. She had a really rough year in her personal life but she still try’s to continue inspiring people. I can tell God has some big things in store for her in the new year. Just sit back and watch. 
2.) Toyaboo 
I’ve been a fan of Latoya Codner for a long time. I never noticed this until I recently watched one of her hair journey videos. I’ve been watching her since the transition video she did when she cried about people not accepting her decision to go natural. I subscribe to her channel because of that video, and it’s been awesome to watch someone grow in confidence overtime. Whenever she does do a hair tutorial she brings a youthful fresh take on styling Afro textured hair. She’s just extremely real which make me want to watch more. She lets you into her world which makes you feel you can trust her. She’s also extremely Pleasant to watch which again really helps when your watching a really long hair tutorial. 
1.) Naptural85
Let’s face it she’s just awesome. Even though we probably don’t share the same hair type I still like to follow a lot of her advice. I still try to recreate her hair style tutorials even though my hair is nowhere near her length. I just like her personality. She’s pleasant to watch with a really upbeat demeanor which is a must if I’m going to watch a 15 min hair tutorial. I’ve never met a natural that didn’t like her, and I believe it’s because she has a good spirit that draws people in. 
Well that’s it. Those are my top 5. What are yours?